A story 2 share...

~ If u love something, let it go. If it comes back 2u then it's yours but; if it doesn't, it never was..~

Misteri kan pic ni..aku sukerr..

Actually that's not really a story pon..saje jer. Tp jgn bgtau mak aku tau!! hehehhe.. ari ni aku bosanlaa.:(
My works almost done. if i settled it all by noon then i won't have anything 2 do in the afternoon plak! So man-man la kan. I take my own sweet my time. Since morn', my boss already came back n forth in front of me for a few times dah neh!..

it's not really a captivating story becoz it's been ages since i finished my last novel..tu pun novel melayu. Lately not really in the mood 2 read anything at all. Laziness has become a part of my life now..i think the level of my knowledge is decreasing and the worst part is my languages are so dammmmmn lingkup!! mana taknya malas nk membaca. aku dh jd cm budak2 kot..coz i'll be more interested in something which is visually interesting and attractive. Haha..becoz of this my observation skill is getting better each day. Since my job evolves around public so i tend 2 analyse ppl's physical n emotional reaction before we attend 2 them personally. I'll feel soo delighted if i cud help those who are really in need of help and don't know where 2 turn 2. But sometimes, it really pissed me off if there were among them who only knew how 2 complaint and never being grateful 4 what we had done 2 them. Inilah namanya org yang xreti2 bahasa, tau mengadu untuk kepentingan sendiri. If they dont get what they always wanted then they'll started 2 find a loophole or any sign of our weaknesses..then started 2 blame other ppl instead of trying 2 accept the fact. Aperlaa yang aku membebel psl keje ni bosan tol..while i'm writing this..my eyelid is getting heavier...ngantukkksssss!!!zzzzzzzzz..

Doodlinggggg!!

Gulp!!.it's almost 12pm now?? how time flies so quickly...xsmpat nk ingat kt sape2 and ape2 pon! just finished updated cases in the system plus wat memo yg bos suruh. Selebihnya aku kt fb laa..
Alaa!! lupa plak aku..baru teringat nk wak usb drive td..nk upload gmbr. Hmm nntla aku upload.


Kelmarin xtvt aku cm biasa..kira weekend ni berjaya gakla aku mmbzkan diri aku kt umah tuh. Weekend 3ari yg aku bgn pagi2 heehhe..pretty amazing huh! cm mimpi jer bgn pagi2 di ujung mggu yg xbz. Aku dh wat dh bgn lmbt2 di weekend 3ari yg lps..tdo smpai rs xleh bernafas. Bgn tdo baring plak pastu termenung atas katil tgk siling....huh very unhealthy lifestyle kan??? nyesal aku tu yg mggu ni bgn awal pg heheh..


Ape saje yang aku wat last weekend?? cleaning the house, doing laundry..(segala blanket, comforter sumer skali aku cuci!), gardening, arranging and organizing things, managing my closet ( ader baju yg nk kene pos blk neh!!), washing my car ( at first thinking of sending the car 2 the carwash but ended up washing it myself instead! xcercise maaa...) dh lama xcuci kete sndiri mengah plak rsnya..(now i sense that that's the sign of not having @ not doing any exercises at all 4 a long time) time makan, makan tp workoutnye tak lgsg! imbalance tol idup aku. Klu bln xposa leh la aku g jogging @ wat aerobic ke ape....lemas jugak cmni! tidakkkk...wpun my kneecap aku segala dh loose disebabkan over-exercised time dpa itu ari namun akanku teruskan jua. (Pesan makcik urut: ni klu nk bersukan pun dh xleh yg xtreme2 sgt dah ni. Klu tak nnt lagi teruk. Baik mmg dh xleh baik pon!!) huhu..sadisnya idupku. Baru je nk berkecimpung lam arena tenis ala2 maria sharipova gitu. (ceh pukul bola pon xkene!!) kdg aku terpk nape aku leh main badminton dgn jayanya i mean kene plak time aku pukul shuttlecock tu tp bila main tenis xkena bola..(huh! musykil aku..adakah ketika bola tu smpai aku yg pejam mata???) padahal prinsipnya sama jerr.


Huh! aku dh masuk tajuk lain rupanya... biasalah aku nih lately ni always lost focus..my mind can easily be distracted from what i'm doing n thinking rite now at the moment. I dont know y exactly..am i going 2b senile too soon since i also can memorize sth only for a short period then i 'll go blank? OMG.!! minta dijauhkan laa..dhla citer psl ni. Aku kan nk citer psl weekend aku tadi..


actually, Dee n I already planned to go to Jln Tar yesterday for shopping2 but pk punya pk last2 xjd pon sbb masing ala2 pokai gitu wpun baru awal bln kannnn..yerla mana taknya pegi tu mmgla leh pegi tp klu dh pegi kang xbeli pape saje sangat..dh tu klu pegi takat tgk je bg meleleh air liur teman baik ler xpayah. Nak beli sen xbp nk ader..pastu renung jerlaa huh wat menyakitkan ati jerr namanya!! kata mak aku elokla..klu pegi mmg la ngabiskan duit jer..tggu jer g soping ngan ma nnt! yeay!! beshnyaa menumpang sekakitangan...


so, yesterday morning what i did was..trying old the old clothes..agak2 dh xbest tuh msk beg blk kg laa..pastu by afternoon rs cm nk try wat rich choc pudding lak..everything went perfect! dh msk lm mould tggu jer sejuk sket b4 mskkan lm fridge. Rupa dah ader hopefully rs dia pon oklaa nnt. I've decided 2 go 2 Dee's after solat asar. Sng sket lgpun menu ari ni..smlm decided nk wat mee kari so aku dh soh Dee prepare everything...tp b4 g umah dia aku sggah gakla kedai beli lagi ape yg ptt. Aku la yg akan jd chefnya nnt wpun aku br jer nk try wat for the 1st time..bknnye ape dh lama dh teringin nk makan tp xjumpa2 tpt yg best. Dh penah beli ari tu b4 puasa tp my god hampeh giler..kuah cair cm mee sup plak! so eversince that day..i swore not 2 buy mee kari from the same stall again!! a waste of money je tau!! adik aku pon leh wat takat siram ngan kuah air tuh! huk!huk!huk! frustrated tol..


The cooking session began almost at 6pm dah..seb baik all the ingredients already been prepared. Tinggal nk cmpak msk lm belanga jaa! Fuh mcm2 ada inside the gravy...prawn, chicken pieces, cockles, fish cake, n bla..bla..yummie!! best giler nih! klu mkn kt kedai maunya kene caj RM6 semangkuk hahahha..:D..we almost done with the cooking dh dkt nk iftar dh pon. Just nice n well timing..hmm time 2 taste my rich choc pudding hopefully it wud be nice..bismillahirrahmanirrahim..sblm dorg ni rs baik aku dl yg rs..hmm..mak aih sedapnya puding aku hehheheh(puji diri sndiri!) moist gile cokelat dia. Xsia2 aku cuba resepi nih..nmpak gayanya akan ku buat lg nnt utk diri aku pulak hehhehe! besh!besh! lupe lak nk amik gambo puding tu. Next time aku upload yerr...:D

Higgledy-piggledy

Fuhh..caca merba idup aku ari ni..berserabut xtau ape nk wat. It's lunch break now but as it is fasting month so i just dont know what to do..since today is Friday klu aku ni lelaki of coz la aku dh ader kt masjid kan untuk solat jumaat tapiii..there's nothing much i can do. Just now, went 2 the bank untuk withdraw duit maklumlah duit lm purse pon dh tinggal RM5 jerr..pastu lalu dpn Kedai Lepeh tadi dorg already started preparing n selling juadah 4 iftar. Mula2 cm xnk msk tp biasalah aku just cudnt deny my own command not 2 step into that kedai.

hmm..ader mcm2 kuih..pastu nmpak lak paru goreng so selamatlaa aku. Tgk puding n kuih..nk beli ke xnk?? pk punye pk..karang nk g bazar Ramadhan gak..tp klu beli ari nih pastu xlarat mkn simpan jerla lm fridge dan akan jadi juadah berbuka aku spnjg weekend! (nafsuku berkata-kata nmpaknye!!:D) Aduyaii!! susahnya nk melawan nafsu di bulan puasa ni..klu bulan xpuasa xlarat nk lawan nafsu setan so the conclusion is if there's no enough iman inside u then inilah jadinya..buat ape pon mengikut nafsu semata. Pompuan kann?? satu akal jerr..nafsu?? ada sembilan tau tu yg susah nk kontrol tuh! (alasan semata..)

alamak ekceli tadi aku nk g cari cobbler kt sbrg jln..dh jalan punya jalan di tongah paneh rupo2nyo tutup pulak!! mmg xbukak ke @ dorg tutup smntara sbb g solat jumaat?? mmg salah timing la aku ni. Nak repair kasut peberet nih..kasut yg aku pakai spnjg2 dpa..kasut yg aku beli sbb aku injured n aku beli guna kad jusco orang heehhe..:D what a beautiful moment!! tp kasut tu mmg best sgt sbb tu aku pakai smpai nk berlubang tapak dia..so in need of quick replacement larr..since aku xjumpa ngan cobbler td so terpaksala aku heret kasut aku tuh g bazar ramadhan nnt.

td cm nk ujan segala skang xplak..elokla tuh. it's not the end of office hour yet but obviously my mind has been messed up with the plain thought. .plain activities n bla.bla.. rs geram je cm nk masak mcm2 tp tu la xder plak org nk tlg mkn due 2 the fact that of coz la ramai org yg blk kg kann sbb cuti pon 3hari. Cuma aku jer yg xder ape nk wat. Arghhhh...tensen tahap gaban ni! xkan nk pandang dinding n siling lagi..?? *sigh*

Kebosanan yang menjadi-jadi

Today is the 12th day of fasting but still i'm not losing my weight. I dont know what i've eaten so far..i was trying 2 avoid 'nasi' eventhough the temptation is there everyday.! Hahahah..but dunch ya forget k..(keep on reminding myself!)..i maybe didn;t take any nasi but i stuffed myself with fried n oily food...arghhhhh!! countless caloriesssss...really cudnt resist the temptation. And now my stomach is bloated again and i regret it a lot!! (sekejap jer nih!!). Aku perlu lebih menghayati erti Ramadhan nampaknya..makan sekadar perlu tapiiii..klu makan xhabes nnt membazir dan membazir itu amalan syaitannnn. Of coz aku xmau jadi setan. Ari ni rs cm nak makan nasi la plak! (see lom ape2 lagi dah pikir psl nk buka puasa and it's just 9.30 am ok!!) Rs nk msk tp takut xhabes jugak huhu..hello sista enuff of this larr..

I have so many things 2 do but yet i dont know where 2 start. I'm not in the mood la today. Thinking ahead.. This weekend gonna be another long weekend. Again!! another boring weekend! Ingat nk g shopping tp bajet cm ciput jerr..*sigh* ape taknya time2 nk raya ni jugakla aku nk kene byr insuran, lesen n road tax segala. I'm soooooo damn unlucky!! tiba2 rasa cm missing someone plak!! huhu pathetic betul aku nih..(plzzz la be realistic ok!!)
I have 2 get back 2 my work kang ader juga yang nk kene sound nnt coz keje xsiap...nnt aku smbg la blk yer!!

Bouncing Back

Here what i just read and found out that this is a very fruitful tips to those under pressure like having problems at the office, hassles with bosses, relationship trouble and etc. Problems somehow is something which is inevitable..having problems sometimes can spice up your life!. Life is not a life if you are not having any problem at all because it's normal to feel down or hopeless at times. what we have to do is try to find some ways to start feeling better such;

TALK IT OVER : Open up to people you trust

TAKE CHARGE : Sometimes, big changes are hard so try to do something that makes you feel in control. It could be as simple as wearing clothes that make you feel confident.

GET EXPERT ADVICE : If you still couldn't find any ways to solve your problems by yourself, seek out your guidance counsellor; or stay anonymous by calling a helpline or crisis line. (we do have that in our country rite??)

DO SOMETHING YOU'RE GOOD AT : maybe you can do something which is at your very best interest and something that you capable most like playing instrument, drawing, cooking anything..(trust me it works!)

TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME : Don't worry about the long term consequences. Just enjoy what you have at the moment. Do not succumb to your problem too much!

LAUGH : Watch something funny or joke with friends; Laughter is a great stress reliever and the best medicine.

Note* : Problem is one of the ingredients in life. As long as it had affected our lives than we have to face it.
But remember,,,try to tone down your stress by applying one of the above or else you'll get stucked with your endless problems.

Mutiara kata hari ni (aku dengar tadi) :
Pengetahuan dan pengalaman adalah sesuatu yang tidak dapat dimusnahkan. Walaupun mengalami kesukaran pada awalnya, namun dengan adanya azam dan kekuatan segala kesukaran yang ditempuhi untuk mendapatkan pengetahuan dan pengalaman itu akan dapat diatasi. (lebey kurang cmni la kot ayat dia!)

A person to be missed...

Another day passed by..another boring day to be faced. I'm counting each day..everyday since my beloved dad passed away almost 8months ago. I missed him very much! *sigh*..(now i almost shed my tears again!!).

I always reminded myself to be strong...to face the fact that the person i loved most has gone forever..:(

Perhaps, if he still alive..he also doesn't want me to be sad either. I treasured every single moment i spent with him forever in my life even the last moment and the last picture i took with him (never thought it would be the last!)....i feel like crying now! I can't continue writing. He's the best man in my life and had always be my shoulder to cry on. His unfulfilled hope and dreams for his children will always be remembered and will be fulfilled soon when the time comes. I have to be strong!! I miss you terribly Ba!!

Hari Raya pada tahun ni adalah hari raya pertama aku tanpa Ba disisi. Senang cite aku takder mood pon nk raya. Sedeyy gile rasanya. Even my granny pon just passed away a week before Ramadhan. Aidilfitri yang bakal menyayat hati kot tahun ni..tp harap2 xkan ada drama swasta di pagi raya nanti.

Introduction

A memoir is just one story of your entire life...it can be an appealing story or the indescribable one.
Yet, it stretched from the moment you were born and as far as you can remember..through the bad times and good times of your life..the countless and even the priceless memoirs of your life is really hard to be forgotten!